Date:	2004-06-27 22:23
Subject:	New Job. New man. New Thoughts?
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Mood:	calm

Some time back I joined my first Job. All I can say is it has been a hectic new week filled with promise and sleepless nights(due to more reasons than one).

I'v shifted base to Bangalore for now. and hope to make it to at least one of the LJ meets being held here.

On the other side I do feel like there has been a drastic change in my life in the last couple of months. College student to my first job has been a smooth transition mostly. A new perspective on life is what I look forward to from here.

Date:	2004-05-06 01:05
Subject:	My One big contribution to the world
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Mood:	contemplative

I'm sure most of us remember the time when we were kids and imagined ourselves to be superhero's with super powers to do stuff nobody else could. Was it just me or did everybody just wished they could make a difference in the world around. I remember I imagined myself as several bollywood hero's from their leading roles in movies.

Well just sit back and hear me out here.
Later in life as we grew older our singular achievements in life gave us solice in knowing that we had done what few others had acheived. I'm sure everybody has a moment from 5th or 6th grade they remember. A part in a school play, an atheletic acheivement or something to do with acheiving good grades. Well did society bundle us up to think that all those things were unique. Well sure I played a really great part in a school play but I'm not an actor today. I won the 100mts dash but I'm not a sportsperson or I got good grades in school whatever happened. Those singular achievements that we are so proud of, Are they really making that difference. Are we in pursuit of what society makes us think we want. Just so that it can then just pop the bubble. It's like, "Sorry kid you just don't cut it as an athelete or a actor or a playwrite or whatever".

A few years further away is your angry young martyr thing. This is when they make you beleive you really can make a difference right now. You start to discover real world problems and solutions and you start looking for/beleiving in this one thing you think can really make a difference. I mean social and animal rights activists. Those nerds who figure out that cold fision may not be a myth after all. It's like a whole set of passionate paths are handed down to us. But again we bide our time awaiting to be taken seriously.

Even later and you find yourself in college doing stuff you never knew existed as a kid. and you go through more drills like a semester project or a survey or a garage project which you could sell to like billions of people.

Ok not everybody reaches there but the rest of us are still biding our time. And all this time we are supposed to fiegn interest and motivation for the benefit of those evaluating us. I mean, project evaluations are a joke. You take a seniors report and reprint it and you get the same grades as the guy who came up with this brilliant new idea and spent 4 months of flesh and blood implementing it. You get the same reactions as him too. Your 50 page report is checked for content(read contents page) and presentation and so is his. I saw this senior of mine submit a project which was an example from a software which was being taught to the class for 6 months. The teacher didn't know and the fellow got top notch grades. Let me put this in light I personally know that senior and he was positively brilliant the kinda guy with those new ideas I was talking about. But as usual we are all biding our time and he saw no point in sweating unnecesarily for something which was not gonna matter to anybody anyways.

It seems like all this time we bide is just an excercise. Is it not to say that we are just killing away genius waiting to make that "one big contribution to the world".

Date:	2004-04-01 00:37
Subject:	The smaller things in life keep getting bigger
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Mood:	blank
Music:	none

It's amazing how life has changes. Though it's the smaller things in life which tell us how much it has really changed.

Innocent Birthday parties have changed into splurging outings.
sugar coated toffees from the grocer have been replaced by stuff from the local cakes and pastries shop
sessions of hide and seek in the neighbourhood have been replaced by kids playing badminton instead

It's all been uphill but have we learnt to expect more from life or are we living in a larger than life world where we just expect more every time. The definite changes can be seen all around it's just that you have to identify them to feel the actual impact.


Have the smaller joys of life become bigger or have they dissapeared all together.......